in my room. always loved them and loved when people burnt them. finally got my own crazy holder/stand and loving it. so fucking mellow and relaxed right now. i don’t need drugs to get high. 

i miss high school. everyone says that “oh don’t rush yourself out because one day you will look back and miss it. i know i sure do. damn i’d give anything to be back in high school. the good old days”. well maybe times have changed?- but i don’t miss it ever. i don’t like it, it just gives teenagers added stress they do not need. so yes, I’m stoked for the day i can look back on it, and say that i miss it because i know then, i won’t be in it anymore. fuck. 

so perfect; my longest relationship ever, and my first anniversary. And I can honestly say that there is NOBODY else that I could picture sharing the past year of my life (and much more of it) with. I love it when you change in front of me without a single though because you know I won’t judge you even for a second because I love every inch of you. I love that we can have conversation no matter what and not get bored. I love that I can take you out anywhere and we will make the most of it, even if the night goes bad, in the end we can look past it and talk about the future together and make plans for anything and everything as long as we are together for it. I love listening to random music with you and good music and having random tv shows on or movies and sometimes watching the whole thing, or sometimes missing the end… =] I love all of your clothes and your outfits always look so perfect. I love that you love my room and my bed and never want to leave it because I never want you to either. I love how comfortable I can be with you, no matter the consequences. I love how we are pretty much a part of each others families. I love how silly and absolutely retarded we can act together and send stupid texts like a 3 year old would say (togeders) each other, but in the next minute be completely serious with each other if need be. I love how after a year we know each other inside and out and I’m perfectly happy telling you every secret and thing about me or that happens in my day; and I love that during my day when things happen I immediately think about you and how I want to tell you about it and I want to know what you are going to say or how you will react. I love that I have someone to talk to every second of my day and never ever feel lonely- but at the same time we don’t suffocate each other and if we want space, we both understand each other. I love that I have you to think about before I make any decision because honestly without you, I don’t know where I would stand on certain issues, or how I could keep my sanity, without having someone to vent to, or someone to keep me in line when I need to be told so, or without you in the back of my head telling me which might be the right thing to do, instead of acting on impulse.

 ’Forever is a long time, but I wouldn’t mind spending it by your side; and tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile? I wouldn’t mind it.’  Sarah Jean Borchert, I love you moar than you even can begin to know. You honestly are my world, and you mean so much to me, and ‘I owe it all to you, my little bird’ because you made my life perfect this past year. I love you babe, and I cannot wait for whatever lies in our future together. <3 

- love,

JBG

:)

works out. i know it will.. but, i just want it to be done, and over with. i have no patience, especially when it comes to things i really want, and money. fuck.